“He said ‘special,’ right?” Jeremiah was pacing around, chin-to-chest so
his head wouldn’t hit the metal ceiling.
He and his bandmates called it their “tour bus,” but really it was just
a rusted and hollowed out van they had paid $600 for three years back. Lily was trying to care, but all she wanted
to do was leave and pick up her packages.
“And then he said ‘talented.’ They want talent. Well, I’m pretty damn special and I think we
all can agree I’m talented.” He wasn’t
really even talking to her.
“Oh ya, sure.”
He seemed so small-minded, so arrogant.
He had no idea just how un-special
he was. He played in a garage band and he
was no closer to leaving his job at Starbucks than when he had started. Before, Lily had believed he was special. She had been there at every show, watching
and supporting his Midwestern dream of “making it big.” And the glow of being the lead man’s
girlfriend had been enough for a while. Before,
she had felt lucky as she looked out at his small but dedicated fan base made
up of screaming tween girls. Before, she
had looked at him like he was the only thing in the universe. She could have stared
at him forever. But not now.
Not anymore. Not after they had arrived.
As Jeremiah rambled on, she thought about them, the
Jewels, those who had come down and introduced themselves a few weeks
back. Their representative gave a speech
to the nation from the White House. Lily
thought about the look on the President’s face as he stood behind him. It was a mixture of joy and fear, elation and
terror.
Good
evening. It is a pleasure to be here
tonight.
She thought about how normal it seemed, like they
had just moved into the neighborhood from another city.
We
appreciate your hospitality. We have
traveled a very long way to see how your spectacular race lives and works and
participates in its community. We are
impressed.
He looked human, mostly. His eyes were larger, and more oval. He wore a dark blue suit and a red tie. He stood tall and straight at the podium,
looking directly into the camera. His
hands rested gently on the edges, his fingers were thin, longer than human
fingers but still human in shape and color and form. His voice was soft but clear. He didn’t need the microphone. It was as if
he didn’t need to use words. He was able
to be understood without speaking at all.
We
will not be imposing upon you long.
He never looked away from the camera. Lily got the feeling that he could see her,
looking right at her, but after the speech, that’s what everyone said.
We
will be seeing some of you soon.
“Lily, hello?” She snapped back to the “tour bus.” “I mean, come on. Let’s listen to the last song one more time
and tell me what you think.” Jeremiah
crawled in the front seat and restarted the CD.
He looked smaller than she remembered, hunched over the steering wheel,
staring at the radio, looking young and hopeful and scared.
She suddenly didn’t feel like wasting any more time
with him. She knew he wouldn’t get
picked. He wasn’t what they were looking
for, not that she knew. She opened the
side door to leave, already late for her rounds.
“I’ve gotta go.
I’ll see you later.” She stepped
out and shut the van door.
“K.” He said
distractedly.
And just like that, he was no longer her entire
universe.
She circled around the back of restaurants, knocked
on the locked doors of closed bakeries, waiting for the managers, chefs, and
bakers to hand over the dried up and picked over pastries their customers hadn’t
chosen from the day before. They were
just going to throw them away; they might as well let Lily take them off their
hands for a neat $20.
Once back in the kitchen, away from Jeremiah, Lily
set to work. The serrated knife cut the
pastries easily, the blade connecting to the wooden prep table with a hollow thunk after making its way through an old
cinnamon roll. The recently purchased pile
of rejected rolls and croissants lay waiting to be sliced and repurposed into
pudding. She tried to keep her mind
focused on what was in front of her, having cut herself more times than she
could remember at that old and beaten prep table. Her boss walked by, stood across from her, and
smiled.
“Your bread pudding does to celiac sufferers what Dr.
Atkins’ death-by-heart attack did to his bacon-munching followers. I swear girl, no one can resist this stuff.” He walked towards the front, too hot to stay
long in the kitchen but happy to see she was getting her job done.
Because the pudding was the only thing he let her
cook, Lily had begun to resent his praise.
She wanted to try something else, anything
else, and the heat just made her angrier.
The air conditioning was broken again and the fan wasn’t doing much more
than blowing around the humidity from the ovens and the boiling stock pots. The icing from the cinnamon rolls was starting
to melt and stick to the knife’s blade and handle. The sugar and warm dough gummed between her fingers,
gluing them together.
Then surprisingly, she felt a cool breeze. She thought maybe one of the chefs must have
come up behind her and opened the freezer door.
But she didn’t hear the door open or the approach of squeaking shoes. She turned around to look and in shock dropped
the knife. A Jewel was standing behind
her. He was tall and lean and smiling.
Are
you ready to go, Lily?
The knife stood balanced on the blade where it had dropped,
the sticky handle unwilling to fall. And
then it did, slowly, but Lily was not there to see it.